Open your eyes, Remember whats Real

so here's the truth you were right all along the world was never my friend and i was living a lie, help me not to fall for it next time.

you figured me out i'm like a leaf in the wind i try to find who i am but wind up lost in the end sometimes its hard to know whats real when your not.

cause you know i change myself to impress whoever happens to be next to me, but i'm sick of trying so hard, i know i'm a mess right now But He won't give up on me, believe. He would wait it out for you. wasted so much time with the world. and i know i'm a mess right now. dont give up believe.

nothings here for me.

nothings here for me, but you.

-An Armor for Sleep song slightly changed

We Are Named and We are known

You were once a sweet little girl so innocent and pure. Your eyes were open and sure anyone could look right in.

I followed closely your gaze you looked up towards the sky. But I watched your face drift away other things had caught your eye.

The magazines and media supplied you with their plastic protocol. And maybe music television really is the devil after all. But all I can say is I knew you before You were beautiful back then before you grew up, before you gave in.

You dream of sharing your heart Instead you share your bed. And your heart beats empty and cold With all the tears that you have shed.

You dream of baring your soul. Instead you bare more skin And you wear dark glasses to keep Anyone from looking in.

And all you want is to hear the words: "Dear baby I love you" So you hike your skirt higher still 'Till there eyes are all on you.

You drive in fast foreign cars The color of your sin. And you tint your windows to keep Anyone from looking in.

Oh, and all I can say is I knew you before You were beautiful back then Before you grew up, before you gave in.

And all I can say is I knew you before You were beautiful back then.

You could be beautiful again..

-I knew you before,by Dustin Kensrue-Please come home.

Sporting The Hip Lip

Ai Ai Ai Aiiii, Five Italian Flavors

Kids who are hip

All Grow Hair on the Lip

So Grow and Grow and Grow

Please Let the Mustache Grow

A Beautiful Light in a Dark World

We move for all mankind, a million miles for

everything we've ever known

were on their hearts and minds,

a million heads are bowed to bring us safely home

hemmed in by emptiness, a million ways

that everything could be undone

this hollow in my chest is filled with reasons not to sing,

but i found one, i know

we are not alone, we feel an unseen love

we are sons and heirs of grace

we are children of a LIGHT that never dims

a LOVE that never dies, keep your chin up child

wipe the tears from your eyes

in sleep we saw ourselves, a million years we had

been waiting there it seems

while someone weaves a spell, a million stars look on in witness to our dreams

we feel an unseen love

we are children of light

STAND READY AND TALL, REFLECT THE LIGHT

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-Dustin Kensrue, (Thrice)-music box off of Vheissu

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John 1vs4-5

His Life gave light to everyone, the light keeps shining in the dark

and the darkness has Never put it out

Taste and See,Be Still And Know

Every Mans Life is a Tale written by Gods Finger

-Hans Christian Anderson

WAKE UP WAKE UP!!!

The Night is over It's Time to Wake UP

The Spider and the Cobwebs

I wanted to write this blog before and I tried but was to proud to post it with spelling errors, so in the process of trying to, being proud about a blog on pride I guess, I lost it all. hmmmm ironic maybe not.

I'm starting to believe Pride is the worst and hardest to grasp of all my sins and many sins flow from this one great one. Hate, lust, greed, lame self-pity, all stem from pride for ourselves and not our maker. But the two I want to talk about are self-pity and hate.

C.S Lewis says this about self pity.The passion of pity, the pity we merely suffer, the ache that draws men to concede and to flatter when they should speak truth, the pity that has cheated many a woman out of her virginity and many a statesman out of his honesty-that will die. It was used as a weapon by many, by bad men against good ones: that weapon will be broken.

I never really thought about pity, but I think unhealthy self pity is never God ordained and it is a breeding ground for a life of pain and even hate. And I know at time's its seems a beautiful comfort, but I know its not. whatever weak unnatural feeling of joy it gives will never really satisfy or last. The thought of I'll hurt them back to make me feel a little less pain is empty in the end. It was hard to think that love and forgiveness could really ever bring joy back into your life they always seemed like the weak path to me. One the world will never understand, like your a weak child if you decide to choose them. But I think they are the weak path, they are a very different path then I've normally ever taken they seem alien to my personality and do make me feel weak, and if I try love and forgiveness on my own or mixed with piousness and pity they will reveal only a lame shadow of love that can hurt more then heal. But if helped through the weakness by someone who is all love and understands holy pity I think something great can be attained.

If pride and self pity are a weapon, what weapon will destroy it? Mr. Lewis says.It’s a weapon on the other side. It leaps quicker then light from the highest place to the lowest to bring healing and joy, whatever the cost to its self. It changes darkness to light and evil to good. And it will never at the cunning tears of hell, impose on good the tyranny of evil. Every disease that submits to a cure will be healed....Pride and pity to me are a disease.

Ralph Waldo Emerson says.
unless we try something other then what we have already mastered, we will never grow.
I think I'm pretty awesome when it comes to self pity and selfish pride... but for some reason a Christlike love is a new concept, and I thought I knew all about him and love for years. I've discovered I really know nothing, except how sweet I thought I was.

The Sadhu Sundar Sing says, sin in our lives is like a spider that constantly lays cobwebs all over our house and in an attempt not to look messy we constantly clean out the cobwebs but leave the spider, the source of the sin. That statement really hits home I try and better my life in Christ by fixing things others might see but the selfish heart of mine hidden behind the skin and bone for no one to see, that needs the attention. Christ is faithful to help me. And It seems I need to daily tell myself this.

I wanted to write on hate but not today I want to think it over some more.

There's Pain in the offering so Blessed be His name

For the last month or so God has place me in something that I hope I can be of a blessing to Him,because i'm still a scared and selfish human,hurt and leaning on my own understanding and I tell myself often I just don't, I don't get it.
I believe He requires me to have the attitude of Christ,and in this situation to not give up again, for those of you who have walked this road. you know how I am feeling. it's not easy to say no problem, love even though it's not returned. And believe me if you even have a little pride it is terrifying. Christ only through perfection could do something as great as he did. he was God all powerful, all knowing, all creator. and in order to love us offered us his heart and life. Something he knew many would not take and many turn down over and over again, I'll do this life my way we say. HE knew what laid ahead for Himself, a future of pain and heartache of waiting on what we so demand for ourselves, free will, it is ours and we can't and refuse to let go, even if knowing giving our lives to Him will bring us that freedom and completion we can only find in Him, we run and refuse. Christ knowing all this, all the hurt before Him and this is the amazing part "He did not demand...His rights...He..humbled Himself."philippians 2:6-8 He was God and he made himself nothing.to give us a gift so great so selfless, we won't even fully understand on this earth. How hard it must be to see Us Christians hold onto the earth with one hand and praise Him with the other, when he knows perfection and glory are waiting for us in a life with Him, if we would just give up THIS, a seemingly fun life, that if we embrace instead will only bring hell.
His utimate humility was a kind we can't understand or comprehend. Why? why would anyone give up whats there's to help another person get ahead or feel loved when the givers heart is breaking and in agony. It blows our minds. And i believe this is why God calls us for this. more then our word's its our lives and God's love working in them that draws people to the Father.
also being vunerable to God will bring us to places that make us even more dependant on Him.
Does the humaness of me want this? absolutly not I'm terrified, holding your heart in your hand and letting it constantly be treated it as worthless is something I could never do, except for the fact that I know God cares for that heart more then any human could and If I give my life and heart to him, It's His, to protect, comfort,bless,teach and train to create into what He wants done with it. So even though there is pain in this offering Blessed be His name. There is a perfect comfort in all pain, Christ Jesus who does know how we feel. cause of how we treat Him.

The Night November took Control

Th s Bl g s my m ss ge t th w rld, nd th w rld l v s t p rt c p t n th r p pl s bl gs. s t j st
m r d s j hn sch nb n wr t n xtr mly l ng w b l g? ts g tt ng cr zy......... h y h d v d sch nb n
s w s m nd r n wh t s n t..

Anyway I just have a couple things to say that i will share with who ever is lucky enough to read, and even more blessed if the get to read my blog.
1- I have just recieved the first season of "The Lost" and I plan to watch it all and become one of those people who are all like, did you see it last night? wow never would have thought that and i'll be like I saw it coming, I've got the show all figured out and then pat myself on the back.
2-For those of you who don't know Brand new is working on a Brand new cd and I'm pretty excited. I check the web page almost all the time I'm crazy I know, but they sing real purdy.
Don't judge me, somebody actually checks for updates on my blog, now there nut's.
3-I was talking on the phone with an RCMP member yesterday about a friend of mine and his application with them, and she suggested we were athletic and intelligent, I just thought I should let you all know that. Even the police think were smart. ( wrong about an icelandic singer, is that even really wrong? No I did'nt think so.)
the end.

The Pirate vs The Parrot

I think Today i'll just ask questons that keep me awake at night.
If Coke and Pepsi are the main competition in the cola market and crest and colgate in the toothpaste dept. Is Crest the Coke Or pepsi?
If a Very attractive girl instantly throws up the second you ask her out, Is that a bad sign?
If A Will-O-Whisp is in fact a real thing how come I can't find any pictures of them without a sexy elf or a grumpy death dragon in the picture? unless there all real. Hmmmm.
Why are saucy British TV comedies so Bad? someone please tell me.
What language does Ozzy Osboure Speak? Is he also from Iceland?
If CSI is real like TV tells me,How come there is also a show called Unsolved Mysteries?Strange.
peace out
the dude in the know.

To Wake like the unavenged

Today was a day of important things, I managed to sleep till about noon I then went looking for somthing to eat and I found somehing at the bottom of my cupboard called Italian Wedding Soup, I thought it tasted pretty much like an Italian wedding would. many tapioca like things that reminded me of those old Orbit drinks that tasted like they were full of floaties and made me wanna puke. then I went out in search of the NEw Thrice CD (vhessiu)? anyway I love it and the new direction the band heading . whatever I wanna watch the office.
I'M SWEETER THEN AARON AND I SMELL NICE

In the cantina YOU TALK BIG.

I just want to let you all know I'm pretty much right 100 percent of the time more then aaron.
it may be the mafia or indigo prophecy, but I know things he only wishes he knew, it must be hard on him sometimes to fall asleep at night, feeling insignificant next to me. in the words of kool-aid himself oh yeah